experience required – part one
January 13, 2010 § 16 Comments
Results of the MRI’s taken mid December were a kick in the pants and a painful reminder of just how flawed self-diagnosis can be. Tsoris seekers everywhere (Yiddish term for folks seeking trouble) were putting their money on a herniated disk, when word came in that a 2” lesion at the base of my skull was causing all the aggravation.
Lesion – sounded bad but more than bad, it sounded vague. Would Bacitracin help, possibly a kiss or a giant bandaid?
Appointments, events and practical details wandered off like fireflies. Tuesday I was out of town on business, Wednesday I was at a pre-op meeting with a Neurosurgeon, Dr Ekkehard Kasper.
Over priced and over crowded, New Years Eve had never been my thing. With my biopsy scheduled for New Years Eve Day tradition continued and I would be staying in on New Years Eve. Staying in a hospital recovering from a Biopsy so delicate it required a neurosurgeons finesse to access a slice of the demon.
With his hand close to my right ear, Kasper explained “You have a tumor the size of a small egg growing in here”. Glass flowers everywhere were jealous that his tender tips were all mine that moment.
I must have looked too calm, or too confused.
With a glint of boyish enthusiasm, he asked: “Has anyone shown you pictures of this yet?”
I had been scanned and imaged, measured and medicated but until that moment I had been without the benefit of visual aide. Kasper pulled a couple of the more compelling images from the MRI deck to pass around.
I think I heard Marty say “shit”. I knew the Bacitracin would be useless.
The the area in question was circled. A near perfect oval, very much the small egg described.
The sutures were removed today and while the course black stitches reinforced my dramatic story, the real art was inside.
Muscles and nerves retracted to gain access to the tumor site were reassembled without event. While the breast cancer had spread, I had the uncanny feeling that it was my creativity that was out of control at this moment. That said, I put in my order for my own set of MRI images.